Today I talked to my Spanish professor for one hour and ten minutes straight. That is a long time. A very long time.
The Spanish professors at my school all smell the same, it's strange. (And a strange observation to make.)
I just have to hope that since I did spend so long talking to her (about a test grade that was exactly what I expected, and therefor very low, and an upcoming paper that I hopefully will get kudos points for having written before the night before it is due), she will grow to like me and just give me bonus points for that. And ignore the fact that I am somehow physically incapable of participating in class (despite that fact that participation is worth 40% of our grade).
Also, I think that everyone on campus knows how much I hate my Spanish class. People I barely know know that I am taking a 300-level Spanish class, that I hate that it is solely about poetry and complicated novels, and that I think that is is unfair that about 60% of the class is either a native-Spanish-speaker, or has studied abroad in a Spanish-speaking country.
Really, just consider yourself lucky that I have been too busy to post much this semester. Because if I had posted more, I can assure you that at least half of the posts would be complaining about Spanish. Ranting about the fact that I only ever do Spanish homework. That I spend 4 hours a day reading Spanish, and therefore don't get my other work done. That I want to learn Spanish so badly, but this class has lowered my confidence in my Spanish-speaking abilities so much that I don't think I'm going to study abraod in a Spanish-speaking country like I had planned. That not only is this classing lowing my confidence in my Spanish abilities, but it's somehow lowing my confidence in my other abilities. And I try to not let it do this, and the fact that I know that it is the Spanish class that is doing this to me should make it so that I can make it not happen, but it's not working like that. (And to add, when I just wrote, "the fact that", I almost wrote "el hecho de que", because all I ever do is think in Spanish and read in Spanish and write in Spanish and take notes in Spanish. Really, I should have just written this entire post in Spanish. Maybe I'll write an upcoming post in Spanish. Maybe I'll write all my future Spanish rants in Spanish so that no one has to suffer through the pain of reading them...)
Posted by Serene Chaos at 8:35:00 PM